I SURVIVED!!!!

Yes! I survived! The fact that I'm writing this post, shows it...granted I did make a few mistakes...but I doubt anyone noticed...anyway...ready for the riddles!

Here's what I posted up last week:

You cannot see it,

Yet it's there,

But you know that

It's everywhere,

A life without it,

Is no life at all,

A life with it,

Can stand up tall,

We know it is

What we need,

We take it for granted,

Even in our sleep.

So what was the answer?

Well...

Air

Yeah, not really meaningful, but for the last few weeks I've been posting up really deep and meaningful riddles, I thought I would give you a break...So yeah, that's the real reason for this riddle. But then again, it is true...without air, you can't live, and with it, we can stand tall, it has an invigorating effect. I don't know how but it does!

Ok, here's this week's riddle:

It is a part of us,

That we cannot see,

Without it's presence,

We cannot be.

To have and lost,

Is not to not have at all,

It makes us blind,

But with it we stand tall.

So who am I,

I cannot say,

But you can show me,

Some other way...

Yeah, the last part, was a bit of a hooha...but I couldn't think of anything else, but the others are really what the riddle is about.! 

Again answers can be posted as a comment so please...COMMENT!!!! 

That is all!The picture this time, is mine, but it was made in a time when I didn't know what to do with myself, so I decided to make up these sorts of pictures. There is no link on it, because it is fully mine! Yeah it was one of my earlier attempts at using Photoshop. ^^

Riddle 8 - Things Happen

So...The riddle for last week!!

We accept it from birth,

We live it until the world hits us,

When we oppose it,

Others say we are blind,

We close ourselves off to its ideas,

We judge those who are,

We cannot accept what it is,

Even though it has been for ages.

What did you think?

The answer is...

Religion

Ok so the reason behind was probably obvious, the appointing of a new Pope in the Catholic Church. Yes I'm Catholic. Actually there are many reasons associated with this riddle, it's not just the new Pope, Les Miserables, had a hand in this too...I don't know why really, but I just know that those who do have faith it's not just because of our own personality, but it's also in the way we were brought up...I don't know I think that if I didn't grow up the way I did now, I'm not sure if I would have had faith in God. But I'm glad I do, because right now, I don't think I can live without God in my life, anymore. I try a lot to see, but I just can't, because when I do, I end up feeling empty inside. Well anyway, enough with all this mushy stuff...Back down to business...

Here's this week's riddle:

You cannot see it,

Yet it's there,

But you know that

It's everywhere,

A life without it,

Is no life at all,

A life with it,

Can stand up tall,

We know it is

What we need,

We take it for granted,

Even in our sleep.

Yeah, I just wanted to make one that rhymed, it's been a while, so here you go! 

Again answers can be posted as a comment so please...COMMENT!!!! 

That is all!The picture this time, is mine, but it was made in a time when I didn't know what to do with myself, so I decided to make up these sorts of pictures. There is no link on it, because it is fully mine! Yeah it was one of my earlier attempts at using Photoshop. ^^

A Surprising Readilation?...

Ok, so this is not exactly a rant, but a very surprised...speech? First of all let's start with Monday...On Monday I receive a text from both my parents saying that I will be needed on Sunday to read for Palm Sunday, which is the beginning of Holy Week, in the Catholic/Christian calendar, of course oblivious to what I was reading I immediately said yes. At this point in time, I just felt privileged to read on Holy Week, The last time I read at Easter was at the Easter Vigil, on the Saturday before Easter Sunday, so I'm happy that I at least could do something that was as important, since we wouldn't be at church for Easter Sunday...it's a coincidence but my dad's birthday is on Easter Sunday, and we will be celebrating in a restaurant called Cosmo...somewhere in Croydon...Anyway...so yeah, I was happy to read, thinking I would be used for either the first reading, the psalm or the second reading...Oh but it doesn't end there...

You see, today on Wednesday 20th March 2013, my dad picked up the readings that I'm supposed to do on Sunday, and I was given a heads up by my mother this morning...Oh it gets better...

So I'm at school, with little concern about the readings, doing my everyday thing, learning, talking to friends, worrying about school, then I get home. I'm on the bus listening to Les Miserables, and loving it...

I come into the house...set down my bags, say hi to my dad, and get ready to do another bout of homework...then I see the post, and the readings I will do on Sunday. Now at this point it didn't strike me that the readings were photocopied, I had half expected it. So yeah, I didn't take any notice of it...until I got closer...

The readings weren't readings...actually when I picked it up, I felt many pages in what I now call my SCRIPT...because it isn't the first or second readings, or even the psalms that I got...nope, IT'S THE GOSPEL! O0O...Imagine my surprise when I see that it is, granted I don't have to say the priests lines that introduce that it is, you know..."The Lord be with you" and all that...And it's not even the best part...Here I would like to point out that my parish has a very modern way in reading the gospel...I'm not sure if every parish does this but mine certainly does. They include the readers to take part in the gospel, as extra characters, so the priest takes the role of Jesus, while everyone else does everyone else...So when I picked up the SCRIPT, I immediately think, "Oh, I'm going to be one of the other characters"...oh no...that's not what I get...

Like every good story there has to be description, in the form of narration...yep you guessed it...I AM THE NARRATOR!!!!!!! And Oh Lord help me...Trust me to get the biggest part, other than Jesus himself...What has happened to me!!! You know what, ever since my Confirmation I've been slowly climbing the ranks of the readers, I've read at Christmas (Midnight Mass) a few times, I've done Easter once, I've done the Sunday dedicated to the Holy Spirit, I've done soooo many Liturgical events, that it's not funny anymore!!! Now I have this...I know I will mess up at least once, during this special day! Over the past I have had at least one mistake whilst I read at mass! HOW AM I GOING TO DO THIS!!!!

So yeah, that's the story so far...If I make it out alive on Sunday, I'll tell you all the good news...If not...well...I guess you'll all have to put up with me saying bad things about myself, and whatnots...I doubt it, but still, please guys, pray for me. It's essential I have a lot of support so I don't make a fool of myself.

As always, God bless, and please post any comment you have, or any questions you have. Otherwise post up your answers to the riddle, that I have set. Like I said before, I post one up every week. ^^

Riddle 7 - This is getting ridiculous

OK, so I'm late in the next one, I've been busy anyway, you know the drill! ^^

A world set apart,

Seen and is real,

But is never believed,

Those who lived in it,

Cannot describe it,

Nor do they want to,

We only dream of what it's like,

But we will never know,

If we don't live it.

Did you get it?

The answer is:

War

Again I was inspired by Les Mis for this one. How many of us can say that we've been in a war, physically, not emotionally or mentally. I mean like really been in one. I know there are many people who can say they have, and they can say a list of facts about how it was and how they felt, but we will never actually know what it's like to be in a war. Can you really imagine it: your friends and family dying right before your eyes? Can you say that you'd go to their aid instead of saving yourself? Can you even say that if you saw a gun aimed at your friend, would you really run to their aid? Would you sacrifice yourself, in an environment like that? You will never know unless you've lived it. Those who lived it say it's hell on earth, and we say we understand. But do we really understand?

Ok so enough philosophizing, down to business...

We accept it from birth,

We live it until the world hits us,

When we oppose it,

Others say we are blind,

We close ourselves off to its ideas,

We judge those who are,

We cannot accept what it is,

Even though it has been for ages.

What do you think?

Again answers can be posted as a comment so please...COMMENT!!!! 

That is all!The picture this time, is mine, but it was made in a time when I didn't know what to do with myself, so I decided to make up these sorts of pictures. There is no link on it, because it is fully mine! ^^

Riddle 6 - Oops O_O

So you know the routine now,

Here's the riddle for last week:

It is a salvation, and a damnation,

It is what we fear, but not cannot avoid.

It is a darkness and a light,

But it will never go away.

It creates grief and life,

We cannot escape it, 

Yet we can choose how to face it,

Some face it with heads held high,

Some don't want to at all.

So any guesses?

No?

~Well~

The answer is:

Death

Why? Well I watched Les Miserable, two/three weeks ago, and the overhanging theme was death. I won't spoil it if you haven't seen the movie or play, or even read the book. But I would SERIOUSLY RECOMMEND IT!! Anyway I thought about death, and was reminded not only in movies but in real life death is always present, but we try not to look at it, and say that we would only look at it later, but that never comes. So, why? Because there are always controversial arguments going on about it, but it is simply something that happens to everyone, at the end of our lives. It's the way you look at it, when you do. Why become afraid of it? Why run away from it? Just face it head on and welcome it like an old friend.

OK this week's one (I'll wait for Monday 18th March to post the answer of the riddle.):

A world set apart,

Seen and is real,

But is never believed,

Those who lived in it,

Cannot describe it,

Nor do they want to,

We only dream of what it's like,

But we will never know,

If we don't live it.

What do you think?

Again answers can be posted as a comment so please...COMMENT!!!! 

That is all!

The picture this time, is mine, but it leads to my other blog, the one that has the story, and if you do go onto that blog, please review the chapter you've read, because I would like to know if it's good, or needs amending. Plus you can add your own ideas! ^^

Cancelled Plans and Disappointment

Ok so you know how when you planned something and the people who you planned it with decided to cancel because of an upset? Yeah this has happened to me today.

Yesterday my sister became ill, and I had hoped that she would be better by now, so we could watch a movie with our cousins, but she's still ill. And we had planned to watch this particular movie for the past week. Cue angry conversation.

I had hoped that we could still go without my sister, because she's seen it twice already, and she actually didn't really want to watch it again, and actually complained to me under her breath that she didn't want to watch it again. Of course while conversing on WhatsApp and telling them that they could go either on their own or with just me, they mistake her leave of absence for politeness, when we kept telling them that it wasn't.

And while trying to encourage them to go without her, or us, the pent up rage, anger, hurt, and disappointment start making itself known, and playing with my words...so in the end I start getting mad at them and saying, something along the lines of "FINE WE WON'T GO! AND BECAUSE YOU GUYS THINK IT'S GOING TO STILL BE OUT NEXT WEEK YOU CAN GO BUT I WON'T BE THERE! AND IF IT'S NOT OUT THEN DON'T BLAME ME FOR MISSING IT!"

I pretty much told them this, and exited the conversation, I actually thought that if I kept being in the group it would become hazardous to my emotional health, and that isn't even looking good right now, even now as I'm writing this blog, and doing homework, I'm talking to one of them, about what's been building up this emotional fart, because I just can't get over it anymore...

Here's why. For the past two years, my patience has been tested and I don't think I can handle all of the rejection! First off, August two years ago. After completing a week in Lourdes helping out at the grotto and feeling closer to God and going to WYD (World Youth Day) in Spain, which was also a way to get in touch and closer to God, I got my results for the previous year for my AS Levels, they weren't good, so I had to repeat a year. September started, and I was still in Year 12, because I didn't pass and I could see all my friends in the year above me getting along just fine, or that's what I thought. Christmas and New Year passed and it's February again. Around this time, I also had to film, for my AS media coursework, and had to put up with one of my actors dropping out and having to replace him with someone else. Oh that doesn't end there...The new actor...who will not be named, because of again emotional reasons...started complaining, because we had to film in the cold, wet winter...Newsflash buddy...I HAD TO!!! IT WASN'T BY CHOICE THAT I HAD TO FILM IN THE POURING RAIN AND THE COLD! MY MEDIA COURSEWORK WAS DUE BEFORE THE EASTER HOLIDAY! In March, after filming, I got my exam results (because I had an ICT exam in January, 10 hours of hell - spread out of course) and I got a failing grade, and I was tempted to redo it again, but thought better of it. At least I knew that if I got a good grade in my ICT coursework, I could get a C over all in my A Level (I managed to continue ICT into A2 - what a relief).

Now skip along to Summer 2012, I went to the US, namely Washington DC, New York and Chicago...I didn't really think it was a touring trip, I had expected something more relaxing, because I had been very active during the year, and I had wanted to go swimming since I actually find that relaxing, possibly near the beach, but if a pool was present, I wouldn't complain, but nope...nowhere near a beach, and not packing a swimming costume should have been my first guess that we weren't going to swim. Instead we took tour buses, walked around beautiful monuments, which did inspire some creative juices for my other blog. But that was about it. There was no spa treatment, no lie ins, nothing. Instead all we got were some souvenirs, new clothes (because that was all we could do, shop for new clothes) and some memories of these places we'd been to...WE DIDN'T EVEN GO TO THE WHITE HOUSE! (well not properly).

Despite that the only good thing about the Summer was my exam results after the trip, I had nearly expected to get failing grades again, but Boom Bam Baby! C's all around, meaning that I had just barely passed to go to A2! That was probably the good thing that happened for the past two years (prom notwithstanding, although it was a great party and it was for the year I used to be in, I didn't feel very happy at the time, I would have liked it if I had one of the people from my friendship groups attending with me - they were in the year above my old year, so they had their own prom).

Now comes September, I was fully immersed in my studies for the whole term. Except a little mishap happened, and I am now no longer proper friends with one of my sister's friends (you see I took a liking to her friends, and became an honorary member of their friendship group). I will never forget the way she mocked me...IN FRONT OF ME!!!!! All I did was just be myself expecting to be taken seriously, and I knew that I would be funny unconsciously. BUT I DIDN'T EXPECT TO BE MOCKED!!!!!! Seriously, this one "friend" honestly shouldn't be a friend. There's loads of issues with this one girl that I can describe but I won't because It would probably take up the entirety of this blog! So now, I'm no longer talking to this person, and will not in the near or distant future!

Then Christmas and New Year came around...which were not even celebrated the way that normal families celebrate...together...My dad had to work on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, so we didn't do much things together, and we barely made it to Christmas Eve Mass! I really didn't enjoy it, even though I tried to, I didn't feel the Christmas spirit! New Years was slightly better, but I still felt dejected because of Christmas.

My birthday came, and my mum and I watched the Hobbit in 3D IMAX at the BFI. It was good don't get me wrong, it's what got me into writing riddles, but that's not the point, we ate at Harvesters (a restaurant/pub) just my dad, my mum, my sister and I. I was half expecting to have a big family get together, like we do every year...but as you can guess, that didn't happen. Nope, not a damn thing was done to celebrate my birthday with my whole family.

After this small disappointment, I now had to film with my cousins (the very ones that I had just argued with about going to the move...oh we're getting there) and a few friends, for my A2 Media coursework, which I am working on at the moment. Oh everything went smoothly, and we were getting on just fine, then a small hiccup happened. If you read my blog before, this is where "Anti-Social Time! Bad I Know" came in, I'm not even going to start with it.

Ok so we finished filming and we were going  to pretty much go our separate ways, when I suggested watching a movie with my cousins, as well as my sister (who I wasn't sure was going to come) - by the way, this isn't the incident that started this post off, no this is the one before it. So I invited them, and we were sure to carry out this plan...then one of our cousins fell ill. I got that, it wasn't her fault so I suggested we drop the plans, besides we were going away for the half term (which was last week). This was just a disappointment, which I knew wasn't going to be picked up, and I half expected to watch it in the cinema anyway. So I resigned its fate to be on TV or on the computer.

Then the half term came...we went to Wales. Not a bad place, very hilly and scenic. It was nice, to get out, don't get me wrong. The holiday was nice...I just expected to relax though, and have Wi-Fi...I got none of it...nope, and the pool that was promised to be fixed and heated...not even that...When we got into it on like the second day, we expected it to be warmer that the outside temperature, which was about 4-8...but felt like -2 degrees (centigrade/Celsius)...I COULDN'T EVEN SWIM! We inquired at reception, and found out that it wasn't really fixed yet, the temperature had to warm up...WE WERE TOLD IT WAS FIXED!!!!! So we didn't get to have a relaxing swim, in a heated pool, instead we got freezing to death in an ice cube! But at least later in the week my mum had promised to allow me to get a spa treatment...Nope...not even that...When it came to Thursday, which we decided would be a lazy day, my mum declared that we wouldn't even get that spa treatment, because the employees didn't look as vibrant as their spa declared that we would feel like! That's just great! No pool, no spa, no Wi-Fi! Oh don't even get me started! We were promised Wi-Fi to be available, only to find out when we got there, that the Wi-Fi was available IN THE RECEPTION AREA!!!! NOT EVEN IN THE RESORT LODGES! When you promise Wi-Fi, IT MUST BE IN THE LODGES TOO! Oh and the Thursday we expected to have as a lazy day...we went out. And that's pretty much what we'd done throughout the whole week! We didn't even get a rest day! To say the least it was mildly enjoyable, but I had hoped for better.

Now we come to the event that started this long and winded rant...the movie. I was told about this night out, about a week ago, and had expected to actually go...then my sister came down with the cold. I don't blame her. I was concerned for her. But she insisted I go with my cousins to go to the movie, what do they decide? NOT TO GO AT ALL!!!!!!! If one of us wasn't going, none of us were, even though she had ALREADY SEEN IT TWICE!!!!! This is where they mistake her rejection for politeness. And where this whole thing takes off. I had told them that I was willing to go, but they kept telling me this one little snip of a pharse "If you couldn't go to watch one of your favorite movies again, wouldn't you be disappointed?" or "I know I would be disappointed to not watch the movie again." I KEPT TELLING THEM THAT SHE DIDN'T CARE!!! SHE HAD TOLD ME HERSELF!!!!!!!  But nope, they still mistake it for politeness. BUT I REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO PUT THIS NIGHT OFF!!!!!!! I had been looking forward to watching it, with them, and watching it again, because I knew once wasn't enough, but then when they said "we'll watch it next week" I had a bad feeling it wouldn't be on, because it came out early January, and it's already March! So now I had to opt out, because they wouldn't get the hint, that they could watch it on their own, and without us! THEY DON'T ALWAYS HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING WITH US TO HAVE A GREAT TIME!!!!!!! And so I deleted the group conversation, and stopped talking to them in that way, and although I have one of them as my contacts in my WhatsApp conversations list, I will not be talking to them for a while, because after this event, I just can't do it anymore. After a long time to myself, and writing this, I have opted to reject they're incoming offers to going out, for now, because I know they mean well, but I just can't be on the receiving end of rejections anymore. I've had to deal with it too much already, and I don't think my heart or my emotional well-being can take it anymore. So yeah I've started crying now...because all this has just taken its toll...so excuse me while I wallow in self-pity...